The Wurglers

There are so many things to do every day- meals to cook, dishes to wash, children to homeschool, laundry to wash, making plans to make plans, chinese vocabulary to learn and help my children learn, share my faith, encourage others, see big problems, make plans to solve big problems, attempt to carry out said plans, save the world or die trying.  Most days it feels like I am running at breakneck speed and my mind is going even faster. With each successful check on my never-ending list, my pride and sense of self-worth increase.  With each realization that I could never accomplish all that I seek to do, a dip into despair.  One look at my list would tell you I think I am superwoman- a woman with no limits.  The Author of my life tells me otherwise.  "The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone and we fly away." Psalm 90:10  He created me with limits. For the season of Len...

 There is a continually flowing undercurrent in my soul this Christmas season.  What started as a slow trickle has broken out into a rushing, growing wild stream.  Fears and struggles that come into contact with this stream are swept up and away in it, sometimes still bobbing up and down but completely immersed in what I can only describe as peace.  This peace comes from a word that I hear a lot this time of year:  Emmanuel.  Emmanuel... God with us...  So much encased in three simple words. "Unto us a child is born, unto us a Son is given.... and His name shall be called.... Prince of Peace... Of the increase of His government and of peace there will be no end...."  Isaiah 9:6-7 My fears of being alone, being wrong, of being foolish, of being out of control, of what may come are drudged up as they crash against circumstances in my life.  I am wrong often, I am foolish at times, I am in control of much less like than I like to admit,.... bu...

Yesterday we observed Orphan Sunday at our church.  As I stood in the sanctuary singing, I was so moved.  I belong to such an amazing Kingdom.  I serve such an awesome King.  He is holy or set apart from us.  He is not like us.  He always does everything right for the right reasons which makes Him above all.  He is powerful, powerful enough to create the universe.  Why would He care about people like us?  We have no power compared to His, we are imperfect and do wrong things, sometimes we even can do right things but for the wrong reasons, we have done nothing to deserve a relationship with Him.  That is true of every last human being on this earth right now.  That reality is hard-hitting, crushing our pride.  Pride does not give up easily, though.  We shift our eyes away from Him to avoid our shame and ignore our fear of rejection and our view falls on this world.  We create status based on family of origin, citizens...

 Runners are crazy.  Absolutely crazy.  Who submits their body to such distances?!!  Who pushes through pain... just to run?!!  Who shows up undertrained with an air quality index of over 400 to run a half marathon?!  Thousands and thousands of crazy... and dare I say foolish people!  Including me.  When I woke up and cursed the pollution I vowed to only run 10K of the race.  But then the race started... and I was wearing a mask... and I was swept away by the insanity.  Ten kilometers came and went and I was still going.  I felt better in this race than I had in my races from years ago.  So I just kept going.  And I finished!  It felt so good to cross the finish line... especially because I thought a half marathon was 20K and so when I hit 18K and shifted into gear (you know, I always save something for the end) and then 20K came... and we were still running.... and it was brutal... and confusing I might add.  ...

This past weekend we had a team retreat that took us to the mountains outside our city. About a 1.5 hour drive north of us, you can actually breathe clean air and see beautiful scenery - a place of refuge away from the concrete jungle we live in. Sara and the kids and I took off together one morning to do a little hiking. We heard of some trails around our little motel and were determined to find one. The morning was beautiful: cool air, blue skies, the turning colors of autumn, a slight breeze. All the things our hearts have been needing lately. We set off up a hill and hiked (more like dawdled if you're a Wurgler boy whose name rhymes with "laymen") for a while. Evie made it her personal mission to pluck every helpless flower along the way and gift it to one of the family members. Emma talked about various things ranging from Grandma and Grandpa coming to visit next week to her new friend she made at the motel to the beauty of the outdoors. Sara and I encouraged Jaman...

It has been seven years since the last time I ran a race longer than 5 kilometers.  Seven years ago I ran my first  and only marathon.  It was.... painful.... and it felt glorious to finish in 4 hours and 45 minutes.  I'm no record breaker but I crossed the finish line!!  I got a taste for long distances after running a half marathon right here in the city we live in, 8 years ago.  This month I am going to run that same half marathon again with 2 of the same friends I ran it with the first time.  I remember at one point during that race looking around me.... as far as I could see in front of me was black, bobbing heads.... and as far as I could see behind me was black bobbing heads....  That moment was exhilarating; it felt so good to be running the race, so good to be in that country and it also felt like  a picture of that season of my life.  So much to be done but so much hope and promise.  Could God reach a billion people? Of co...

Recently the church we attended in Sioux Falls has begun a sermon series titled "I'm not okay."  It has been on my mind the last couple days.  I have been reading Exodus lately about Moses.  Perhaps you've heard the story before about the baby floating in the basket in the river Nile who is found by Pharoah's daughter.  Moses's mother showed great courage in refusing to follow Pharoah's edict which said they had to get rid of all Hebrew baby boys.  And God honored that because Moses's own mother was the one to nurse and raise him until she had to deliver him to the Pharoah's daughter where he received an Egyptian education.  In so many ways God provided through all these details of Moses's life.  Yet I imagine that Moses lived a hard life growing up.  The Hebrews didn't really see him as hebrew because he lived in the house of their oppressors.  And the Egyptians probably did not accept him as Egyptian because he was ethnically Hebrew.  ...